[He half wonders why it could never ever be just Jesse-and-Rachel, there always has to be someone else.]

I know I never apologized to you publicly, but it was mainly because I didn't think it'll change much. And honestly I cared more about apologizing to you personally, for being such a huge idiot. I would though, if you thought it would help. I don't care what people think of me, but I do care what they think of you and I don't want - those things to repeat themselves because you chose to forgive me and other people didn't.

At the end of the day, I think I care less about what people think of me today than at high school - [he knows he was an arrogant bastard back then too. But the egging - right there he was weak, right there he wanted to be more Vocal Adrenaline than Jesse and right there was when he made a very crucial mistake. After high school Vocal Adrenaline was gone, but the fact was he didn't have Rachel either, so he knew he just lost. He can't - won't - lose her again that easily]